Frontier Psychiatry (vs Miles Lucky at Lights Out #39)
Jul 10, 2020 23:11:46 GMT -5
šššš²š® šš¾š»šš®š» likes this
Post by Morgan Payne on Jul 10, 2020 23:11:46 GMT -5
She awoke with a jolt, her feet hitting the cold floor as her eyes opened and took in the room with a bleary sort of exhaustion. Bizarre dreams. Again. Morgan for all her bluster, the bravado, the air of thuggery. Her ties with the Kingdom, with the Na Fianna, all the things in her life currently balanced on a delicate thread. Sitting in the middle of all that was a woman who didnāt really know her place. She was reeling between one thing and another, trying to fit inside everyone elseās box. The fighting, it helped put it all into perspective, one of the reasons why she kept going like she had been. Catharsis in explosive emotions, and the displays there of. Months of constant wars, to grasp some sense of self meaning.
Sheād found it, couldnāt decide what it was, or why, but there had been contentment in beating Danny MacNamara. Even if she might have burned regretful bridges along the way. That brought her to being awake at 2AM, thoughts of the meaning of life, an overcrowded fight schedule and burning bridges seering through her dreams. All of that brought her to Miles Lucky, her next, possibly biggest fight. A weird little enigma of a man, who seemed no better off with his place in the world than she did. At least no happier with it, than she was.
Morgan pushed herself up from the bed, running a hand through mussed hair. Miles Lucky? He liked to play the man of mystery, she knew, but one damaged individual saw another. He was just as desperately, clawing for his place in the world. He had his violent tendencies, sure, but violence was just another of her strange bedfellows. Sheād grown accustomed to it in the more recent months of her career. She accepted it now. Relished in it. A fight wasnāt a fight, to her, if there was no blood shed. Sheād tasted the blood of her last opponent within Union Battleground, literally, and it had awoken something new inside of her. Something blood soaked and roaring.
Clad in compression shorts and a tank top fit for sleep, Morgan pulled her phone off the nightstand. There was a slight thunk, as it hit the wood of her dresser. Now sheās sitting in her easy chair, feeling anything but easy at the moment. She leans forward with one arm propped on her knee. Her other hand wields the zippo she uses to spark up the end of the Chancellor Treasurer Luxury Menthol sheād started smoking recently in place of the Newports she used to enjoy. She had Morrigan MacNamara to thank for turning her onto something with a little more flavor and class. She lets that first drag linger as she stares down at the zippo in her hand. A half chuckle, half scoff escapes her as she closes her hand around the lighter, finally lifting her attention to where she set her phone. She leans back in her chair, staring at the lens for a long, almost uncomfortable moment before she speaks; her voice raspy from still being half asleep.
āFigure I should do this now while the thoughts are still fresh in my head, ya know?ā
She pauses again, long enough for another drag off of the cancer stick out of a pack that costs almost as much as her cellphone bill. Morgan exhales a plume of smoke from her lips as she leans her head back into the chair. Her eyes, however, shift directly to the camera.
āMiles Lucky. Who the fuck are you, man? Nah, I donāt mean that as in a āwhat have you done in your career?ā I meanā¦.ā
She leans forward in her chair with another drag off her cigarette; her green and blue gems locked on the camera the entire time, never looking away as she shrugs her hands.
āWho are you? The man people donāt see. Where do you belong in the world?ā
Her head drops, casting her eyes at the floor with the smoke of her cigarette rising up around her.
āFound myself askinā the same shit about, well, me lately. Who am I and where do I belong? I guess thatās somethinā we got in common, yeah? Weāre both here tryinā to figure out just who weāre meant to be. Here I am, stuck in life between a collective of lovers that things have been feeling rocky with, lately. Even theyāve been questioning who I am now; Jasmine most of all.ā
She bounces her eyebrows once and takes another drag on her cigarette.
āThereās that on one side and on the other, thereās those that I felt like I was more useful with. Na Fianna. I made a decision that, if Iām being honest, Iām still wonderinā if itās the right choice. I felt reborn when I was there. Lately, I feel more trapped in the place that Iāve been callinā home for over a year now, than I have anywhere else. Like I canāt truly discover who I am. Then thereās you. Miles Lucky.ā
She lifts her head again and motions, almost dismissively, at the camera.
āLittle...art lovinā, homeless lookinā Kurt Cobain wannabe ass. You, shit, youāre like one of those bad indie horror flicks. Not the old ones, no, the new ones. They got these slow, ponderous, confusing fucking plot points for no reason at all. You act all weird and mysterious, hoping itās gonna get you by. Maybe it used to but eventually, everyone hits a wall and well, here I am, Miles.ā
Without changing her expression, Morgan lifts her hand, opposite of holding the cigarette and gives a mocking royal wave.
āThe bitch who doesnāt know her place in the world versus the motherfucker who prefers style over substance, pretending to say and do something meaningful while masquerading as high art. Ya know, I have to admit, as lost as I feel sometimes, I found a sense of peace when I was able to keep my last promise to my mentor. When I was able to beat Danny. I think thereās more peace I can achieve, Miles. I almost feel like being War Horse Champion, with a place to represent, Iād at least have a purpose.ā
Pause. Another drag on her menthol is taken as she looks off to the side, away from the camera for a moment. She scoffs the smoke from her lips.
āI know how everyone else is gonna react to this little piece here. I hear it all the time when I do these. āHeās a great wrestler. Heās one of the best to step into the ring. You best be wary of him!ā Well no fucking shit I better be wary of you!ā
Her attention snaps back to the camera.
āYouāre the fucking War Horse Champion for a goddamn reason, aināt ya? Underneath all that weird, kooky ass shit you pull, you know how to hurt someone and get the job done but what all those people who warn me like to forget is Iām damn good in that ring too! See thatās where weāre different, Miles, is our styles. You like things ultra violent and wild. You like to hit heavy but you go in without any real plan. You swing for the fences and Iāll give it to you, more times than not, it pays off. Me? I can get violent too. Iāve been trained to be both violent and targeted. I step into the ring with a game plan but I can be flexible if I need to be. I can switch things up.ā
She sits back in her chair again and actually throws one leg over the other, crossing them as she smirks around her cigarette.
āYou wanna play the weird, mysterious part, Miles? Iāll fucks with you on that. Some people prolly look atāchu and say shit like ākidās gotta be a maniac. He likes to take body parts! He needs therapy!ā Shit, maybe ya do. Let me be your therapist, Miles. Let me show you how alike we can be. See, I like to take body parts too. I like to gouge eyes out. I like to knock out teeth. I like to pick knees apart like jigsaw puzzles. I like to snap fingers like little toothpicks. Shit, I like my bits so much, I just may snap all of yours to ensure I walk my ass outta there with all my parts intact, in addition to the War Horse Championship.ā
She gives another half shrug and polishes off her menthol, halfheartedly looking around for an ashtray she doesnāt have access to before turning her focus back to the camera. Morgan gives an almost unhinged little smile as she looks at the burning butt in her hand. She lowers it then, pressing it to her bare thigh with a soft hiss. The woman inhales and exhales shakily before opening her eyes to smile into the camera again.
āHappy Pigeon Day, Milesā¦.ā
Sheād found it, couldnāt decide what it was, or why, but there had been contentment in beating Danny MacNamara. Even if she might have burned regretful bridges along the way. That brought her to being awake at 2AM, thoughts of the meaning of life, an overcrowded fight schedule and burning bridges seering through her dreams. All of that brought her to Miles Lucky, her next, possibly biggest fight. A weird little enigma of a man, who seemed no better off with his place in the world than she did. At least no happier with it, than she was.
Morgan pushed herself up from the bed, running a hand through mussed hair. Miles Lucky? He liked to play the man of mystery, she knew, but one damaged individual saw another. He was just as desperately, clawing for his place in the world. He had his violent tendencies, sure, but violence was just another of her strange bedfellows. Sheād grown accustomed to it in the more recent months of her career. She accepted it now. Relished in it. A fight wasnāt a fight, to her, if there was no blood shed. Sheād tasted the blood of her last opponent within Union Battleground, literally, and it had awoken something new inside of her. Something blood soaked and roaring.
Clad in compression shorts and a tank top fit for sleep, Morgan pulled her phone off the nightstand. There was a slight thunk, as it hit the wood of her dresser. Now sheās sitting in her easy chair, feeling anything but easy at the moment. She leans forward with one arm propped on her knee. Her other hand wields the zippo she uses to spark up the end of the Chancellor Treasurer Luxury Menthol sheād started smoking recently in place of the Newports she used to enjoy. She had Morrigan MacNamara to thank for turning her onto something with a little more flavor and class. She lets that first drag linger as she stares down at the zippo in her hand. A half chuckle, half scoff escapes her as she closes her hand around the lighter, finally lifting her attention to where she set her phone. She leans back in her chair, staring at the lens for a long, almost uncomfortable moment before she speaks; her voice raspy from still being half asleep.
āFigure I should do this now while the thoughts are still fresh in my head, ya know?ā
She pauses again, long enough for another drag off of the cancer stick out of a pack that costs almost as much as her cellphone bill. Morgan exhales a plume of smoke from her lips as she leans her head back into the chair. Her eyes, however, shift directly to the camera.
āMiles Lucky. Who the fuck are you, man? Nah, I donāt mean that as in a āwhat have you done in your career?ā I meanā¦.ā
She leans forward in her chair with another drag off her cigarette; her green and blue gems locked on the camera the entire time, never looking away as she shrugs her hands.
āWho are you? The man people donāt see. Where do you belong in the world?ā
Her head drops, casting her eyes at the floor with the smoke of her cigarette rising up around her.
āFound myself askinā the same shit about, well, me lately. Who am I and where do I belong? I guess thatās somethinā we got in common, yeah? Weāre both here tryinā to figure out just who weāre meant to be. Here I am, stuck in life between a collective of lovers that things have been feeling rocky with, lately. Even theyāve been questioning who I am now; Jasmine most of all.ā
She bounces her eyebrows once and takes another drag on her cigarette.
āThereās that on one side and on the other, thereās those that I felt like I was more useful with. Na Fianna. I made a decision that, if Iām being honest, Iām still wonderinā if itās the right choice. I felt reborn when I was there. Lately, I feel more trapped in the place that Iāve been callinā home for over a year now, than I have anywhere else. Like I canāt truly discover who I am. Then thereās you. Miles Lucky.ā
She lifts her head again and motions, almost dismissively, at the camera.
āLittle...art lovinā, homeless lookinā Kurt Cobain wannabe ass. You, shit, youāre like one of those bad indie horror flicks. Not the old ones, no, the new ones. They got these slow, ponderous, confusing fucking plot points for no reason at all. You act all weird and mysterious, hoping itās gonna get you by. Maybe it used to but eventually, everyone hits a wall and well, here I am, Miles.ā
Without changing her expression, Morgan lifts her hand, opposite of holding the cigarette and gives a mocking royal wave.
āThe bitch who doesnāt know her place in the world versus the motherfucker who prefers style over substance, pretending to say and do something meaningful while masquerading as high art. Ya know, I have to admit, as lost as I feel sometimes, I found a sense of peace when I was able to keep my last promise to my mentor. When I was able to beat Danny. I think thereās more peace I can achieve, Miles. I almost feel like being War Horse Champion, with a place to represent, Iād at least have a purpose.ā
Pause. Another drag on her menthol is taken as she looks off to the side, away from the camera for a moment. She scoffs the smoke from her lips.
āI know how everyone else is gonna react to this little piece here. I hear it all the time when I do these. āHeās a great wrestler. Heās one of the best to step into the ring. You best be wary of him!ā Well no fucking shit I better be wary of you!ā
Her attention snaps back to the camera.
āYouāre the fucking War Horse Champion for a goddamn reason, aināt ya? Underneath all that weird, kooky ass shit you pull, you know how to hurt someone and get the job done but what all those people who warn me like to forget is Iām damn good in that ring too! See thatās where weāre different, Miles, is our styles. You like things ultra violent and wild. You like to hit heavy but you go in without any real plan. You swing for the fences and Iāll give it to you, more times than not, it pays off. Me? I can get violent too. Iāve been trained to be both violent and targeted. I step into the ring with a game plan but I can be flexible if I need to be. I can switch things up.ā
She sits back in her chair again and actually throws one leg over the other, crossing them as she smirks around her cigarette.
āYou wanna play the weird, mysterious part, Miles? Iāll fucks with you on that. Some people prolly look atāchu and say shit like ākidās gotta be a maniac. He likes to take body parts! He needs therapy!ā Shit, maybe ya do. Let me be your therapist, Miles. Let me show you how alike we can be. See, I like to take body parts too. I like to gouge eyes out. I like to knock out teeth. I like to pick knees apart like jigsaw puzzles. I like to snap fingers like little toothpicks. Shit, I like my bits so much, I just may snap all of yours to ensure I walk my ass outta there with all my parts intact, in addition to the War Horse Championship.ā
She gives another half shrug and polishes off her menthol, halfheartedly looking around for an ashtray she doesnāt have access to before turning her focus back to the camera. Morgan gives an almost unhinged little smile as she looks at the burning butt in her hand. She lowers it then, pressing it to her bare thigh with a soft hiss. The woman inhales and exhales shakily before opening her eyes to smile into the camera again.
āHappy Pigeon Day, Milesā¦.ā