Post by indi on Feb 17, 2020 22:18:34 GMT -5
Heyyyyy buds!
Sooo things are a little, well I can’t lie to you guys. Things are a little wonky right now and I don’t really know what happened but I think I have to tell you all something. The trouble is though, she doesn’t want me to tell you. She never has. See, I’ve been trying my guys, I have been trying go tell you the big secret but, every time I do… Something happens.
And I can’t just keep letting things happen you know? So you guys totally need to to know something, only it happens to be a kind of a something that I really can’t tell you yet. And I want to, really buds you gotta believe me okay; I wanna tell you all about it.
But I have to go to the moon.
Someone told me once that the moon is made of cheese and maybe they were right, but I think if it really were made of cheese, on nights when things are clear we would be able to smell the moon. So that probably isn’t really the case, huh?
So anyway guys I am going to the moon, to see a man about a dog. Only not really a dog but thats how the saying goes or at least, that’s the one my pop used to use so I think it kinda fits here. When I get back maybe I can tell you then.
But she’s going to take good care of you, you know? In my absence, under it all shes a good egg. I can feel it.
Praise be.
I offer You this incense Child of Zeus
Arrow Shooter, Heavenly One, Goddess of Harbours.
Mountain Roamer, Goddess of Crossroads,
Nocturnal One of the Underworld,
Shadowy One of Hades,
Still One Who Frightens
Having a feast among the graves.
You are Night, Darkness, and Broad Chaos,
For You are Necessity, hard to escape
You are Fate, You are Erinyes and the Torture,
You are Murderess and Justice
You hold Cerberus in chains,
You are steely blue with serpent scales,
O Serpent Haired and Serpent Girdled One,
Blood Drinker
Death Bringer Who Breeds Corruption,
Feaster on Hearts,
Flesh Eater Who Devours Those Who Died Before Their Time,
Grave Resounder,
Driver to the Wanderings of Madness,
Come to my sacrifices and fulfill this task for me!
Praise be.
The yellow dust clouds are distinctly missing. As opposed to the usual desert or dirt roads that usually set the scene for the Commodore and Indi Rhyder, we are instead presented with something unfamiliar and serene; Blue waves tinged with the green of chlorine atop the motel pool slosh towards the grouted tile edges. You would be forgiven in a second for thinking this were something far more luxurious than it is.
A pink lilo, blown fat and full dances atop the waves and that is exactly where she has chosen to lie. One finger dipped below the surface of the likely too cold for this weather pool. The glimmer of her sparkle covered nail varnish beneath the water is distorted. Yet somehow still pretty in itd own way; water has a way of doing that.
Perception can be changed, distorted. Beneath the surface things always seem to have a way of looking different and it is here, atop her lilo; blonde hair fanned out like a halo beneath her, that Indo thinks over her future and how nothing has become what it was once meant to be, not yet, anyway.
But there’s always still time.
"It seems like we might just be forever intertwined, you and me. That’s a bit weird really isn’t it James? There’s you and me and us and whoever else gets thrown in there to take something from under our feet. Starting to feel a little like a bridesmaid, aren’t you?
So I guess this is the part where they try to figure out who it will be. Who of the two that are always so almost close, will it be that gets to step away from this mess. Who gets a new dance partner and who moves up into those big leagues? It isn’t our choice, we stopped having a say so long ago I think I forgot when I ever even had a choice.
But that’s okay because I proved a lot and one of the lot of things that I have proven is really that I am a wrestler and I belong here. And it won’t ever really even matter how much people want to shove that aside, because I will always have my legacy that I am forever striving to live up to and really, that is where all of this is going to come in.
Because now, Mr. Radford, well now it has to be about who is better. It becomes about the hours upon hours upon hours I spend always honing my craft. It becomes about the fact that while you think you can do this all over again, I could just run you about until you can’t keep up. It becomes about the fact that no matter what you think you have to prove.
I have more.
More hunger, more to prove, more speed, more youth, more skill, more time, kore dedication. More, just more and more of all of it. And you have less and less because while I get better, you just get older and you’re on the wrong side of the learning curve now and well, bud I really am sorry because that probably has to suck.
But it's a good thing for me and I plan to exploit it.
Whoops. There I go giving away my plans!"
She laughs softly, that light lilting sound that carries across the waves. Another finger dips beneath the surface as he hands dance on the water's surface. There is something endlessly calming about water; if only you let it take you.
The rest of the ground seems still and quiet, the sun midway through setting in the sky. Its warm and vibrant rays allows the air to be cool and warm all at once. Like an embrace upon her skin as her eyes focus on the camera, or assumedly so since she hides those baby blues behind heart shaped sunnies that would make even Lolita proud.
"I hate to be shop girl, you know buds?
I have never really been much of the girl who talks and talks about her job and tries to peddle her wares but needs must. And I have been promised and told by the universe herself that this is what needs to be done. Really, my bud, my pal, I would love to leave this all to the ring like normal but it feels as though we’re stuck on a loop. I did groundhog day already and I didn’t like it much the first time.
And Ollie refused to even come, he didn’t like it last time either, loops are fun for roller coasters but they don’t make for much of a life and one of us has to get out, one of us has to stop this circle. I can be the one who stops it, you know? People never think I can do things but I got real good at proving people wrong. Even myself.
Even the universe.
Sometimes that is all it really takes you know, a little bit of self belief and knowing you can do something. And you don’t need to talk bad or tough to do it.And I won’t because that isn’t me and even though sometimes I get tripped up saying something less than nice, there’s no need here because in reality you're not the one who has been beating me. Sure part of it is that I have been beating myself but overall? Welllll In the grand scheme the only ones beating me are in that main event and you just happened to be the third closest guy you know? So ok you did ok but not as good as me.
Twice even!
So maybe you think that means this will be your big break! The lucky chance you need. Sorry bud but no can do, see I had a little chat with the universe and I think I’ve been getting the sore end of the deal lately and this time, well this time we aren;t going to play around. No siree this time, it’s gonna be all business because.
Well, groundhog day, remember?"
Suddenly and without any prior warning, she just flips the floating lilo thing and plunges herself under the water. As soon as her body breaks the surface the waves careen out towards the tile, everything is choppy and wild and disturbed. The water itself makes splashing wet sounds against other parts of the water and even against the walls of the pool.
And just like she said, under the surface it all looks a little different. The sunnies glide away on a wave and for a passing second you might even swear those baby blue eyes were black. Blonde strands turning almost red with the hue of the sun, like blood creeping from her scalp to the tips. But it all just lasts mere seconds before is back up, breaking the surface like a mermaid…
Or something less majestic, since no one ever looks like they do in the movies when coming up for air.
"Perception is everything sometimes; We all waste our time worrying about what other people will think or say, trying to get out ahead and be the first with the quick come back or the zippy one liner but really, what does it all do? It all does nothing. You know?
What works, what doesn’t. Changes with each passing second because people are almost as fickle as the universe herself. So you have to make a choice, most people choose to follow people and that works for a little while, at least. But I chose to follow the universe and that requires Faith.
It stopped mattering which way I look at things, I just have to know. I have to believe in myself and in my ability and training. I have to stop caring what they think, or what you think, James. Because does it matter? Really why should it? If you think i’m the biggest challenge you ever faced three different ways or if you think i’m the punk kid, it doesn’t mean anything. None of these words MEAN anything, the part that means something is still yet to come and I just.
WHY?! Why like this, why waste our time. What does it matter if I say I can beat you if I don’t. I have all to lose and all to gain, or nothing to lose at all really. All I have done is lose so why then, why does it matter if I lose again. Perhaps I should cite a cornered animal but would that tired wording not be true for you too? Too true, two losers bonded in our losses.
I don't wanna belong to you, or this or any of it. THAT’s what I have to lose you know? Myself, my faith. How many times can I close my eyes and let the universe take me before she drives me to ruin, so do I risk it… Will this be the loss that takes me faith?
I don’t want to find out.
I can’t.
This has to be the restoration, not the dillsoution.
And if the universe will not guide us, then we will find another, in her place."
Moon Log 001
The moon doesn’t really smell like cheese, HH and I thought maybe we weren’t on the moon at all and part of me thinks maybe he’s right even now. But everyone told is the moon is where we were going and things definitely feel a bit different here.
I don’t have much control over my body and by not much I mean none at all. I stopped even being able to feel it and if I really, really think about it? I guess I feel a bit like a floating head. Like here I am, just floating about and buds it feels weird.
I guess my body got lost on the way or maybe you don’t need a body on the moon. She said I had to come here though, lately the universe has been getting kinds mad with me about things, she says I’ve been acting ungrateful for all she’s done for me and going on a bit about how I was letting her down.
I don’t know if you guys ever let you mom or dad down, but letting the universe down feels a lot worse than that and even that feels pretty bad. So when she said I had to come to the moon, I figured I should do what she asked. I am a bit worried I may miss my match but --
Well, maybe that’s why my body stayed behind. I’m not too worried, she knows what to do and anyway. The one who sleeps behind my eyes has been grumbling and hunger-ing (I think maybe that’s a word I just invented) lately, so this might just be the best thing all around.
Also, I hope you can see this buds! I’m not really sure how it works to blog from the moon. But all the same I hope it comes through. Gotta go now, me and HH are gonna go see if it tastes like cheese, even though it doesn’t smell like it.
TTYL! Xoxo
Indi Rhyder.
Sooo things are a little, well I can’t lie to you guys. Things are a little wonky right now and I don’t really know what happened but I think I have to tell you all something. The trouble is though, she doesn’t want me to tell you. She never has. See, I’ve been trying my guys, I have been trying go tell you the big secret but, every time I do… Something happens.
And I can’t just keep letting things happen you know? So you guys totally need to to know something, only it happens to be a kind of a something that I really can’t tell you yet. And I want to, really buds you gotta believe me okay; I wanna tell you all about it.
But I have to go to the moon.
Someone told me once that the moon is made of cheese and maybe they were right, but I think if it really were made of cheese, on nights when things are clear we would be able to smell the moon. So that probably isn’t really the case, huh?
So anyway guys I am going to the moon, to see a man about a dog. Only not really a dog but thats how the saying goes or at least, that’s the one my pop used to use so I think it kinda fits here. When I get back maybe I can tell you then.
But she’s going to take good care of you, you know? In my absence, under it all shes a good egg. I can feel it.
Praise be.
I offer You this incense Child of Zeus
Arrow Shooter, Heavenly One, Goddess of Harbours.
Mountain Roamer, Goddess of Crossroads,
Nocturnal One of the Underworld,
Shadowy One of Hades,
Still One Who Frightens
Having a feast among the graves.
You are Night, Darkness, and Broad Chaos,
For You are Necessity, hard to escape
You are Fate, You are Erinyes and the Torture,
You are Murderess and Justice
You hold Cerberus in chains,
You are steely blue with serpent scales,
O Serpent Haired and Serpent Girdled One,
Blood Drinker
Death Bringer Who Breeds Corruption,
Feaster on Hearts,
Flesh Eater Who Devours Those Who Died Before Their Time,
Grave Resounder,
Driver to the Wanderings of Madness,
Come to my sacrifices and fulfill this task for me!
Praise be.
The yellow dust clouds are distinctly missing. As opposed to the usual desert or dirt roads that usually set the scene for the Commodore and Indi Rhyder, we are instead presented with something unfamiliar and serene; Blue waves tinged with the green of chlorine atop the motel pool slosh towards the grouted tile edges. You would be forgiven in a second for thinking this were something far more luxurious than it is.
A pink lilo, blown fat and full dances atop the waves and that is exactly where she has chosen to lie. One finger dipped below the surface of the likely too cold for this weather pool. The glimmer of her sparkle covered nail varnish beneath the water is distorted. Yet somehow still pretty in itd own way; water has a way of doing that.
Perception can be changed, distorted. Beneath the surface things always seem to have a way of looking different and it is here, atop her lilo; blonde hair fanned out like a halo beneath her, that Indo thinks over her future and how nothing has become what it was once meant to be, not yet, anyway.
But there’s always still time.
"It seems like we might just be forever intertwined, you and me. That’s a bit weird really isn’t it James? There’s you and me and us and whoever else gets thrown in there to take something from under our feet. Starting to feel a little like a bridesmaid, aren’t you?
So I guess this is the part where they try to figure out who it will be. Who of the two that are always so almost close, will it be that gets to step away from this mess. Who gets a new dance partner and who moves up into those big leagues? It isn’t our choice, we stopped having a say so long ago I think I forgot when I ever even had a choice.
But that’s okay because I proved a lot and one of the lot of things that I have proven is really that I am a wrestler and I belong here. And it won’t ever really even matter how much people want to shove that aside, because I will always have my legacy that I am forever striving to live up to and really, that is where all of this is going to come in.
Because now, Mr. Radford, well now it has to be about who is better. It becomes about the hours upon hours upon hours I spend always honing my craft. It becomes about the fact that while you think you can do this all over again, I could just run you about until you can’t keep up. It becomes about the fact that no matter what you think you have to prove.
I have more.
More hunger, more to prove, more speed, more youth, more skill, more time, kore dedication. More, just more and more of all of it. And you have less and less because while I get better, you just get older and you’re on the wrong side of the learning curve now and well, bud I really am sorry because that probably has to suck.
But it's a good thing for me and I plan to exploit it.
Whoops. There I go giving away my plans!"
She laughs softly, that light lilting sound that carries across the waves. Another finger dips beneath the surface as he hands dance on the water's surface. There is something endlessly calming about water; if only you let it take you.
The rest of the ground seems still and quiet, the sun midway through setting in the sky. Its warm and vibrant rays allows the air to be cool and warm all at once. Like an embrace upon her skin as her eyes focus on the camera, or assumedly so since she hides those baby blues behind heart shaped sunnies that would make even Lolita proud.
"I hate to be shop girl, you know buds?
I have never really been much of the girl who talks and talks about her job and tries to peddle her wares but needs must. And I have been promised and told by the universe herself that this is what needs to be done. Really, my bud, my pal, I would love to leave this all to the ring like normal but it feels as though we’re stuck on a loop. I did groundhog day already and I didn’t like it much the first time.
And Ollie refused to even come, he didn’t like it last time either, loops are fun for roller coasters but they don’t make for much of a life and one of us has to get out, one of us has to stop this circle. I can be the one who stops it, you know? People never think I can do things but I got real good at proving people wrong. Even myself.
Even the universe.
Sometimes that is all it really takes you know, a little bit of self belief and knowing you can do something. And you don’t need to talk bad or tough to do it.And I won’t because that isn’t me and even though sometimes I get tripped up saying something less than nice, there’s no need here because in reality you're not the one who has been beating me. Sure part of it is that I have been beating myself but overall? Welllll In the grand scheme the only ones beating me are in that main event and you just happened to be the third closest guy you know? So ok you did ok but not as good as me.
Twice even!
So maybe you think that means this will be your big break! The lucky chance you need. Sorry bud but no can do, see I had a little chat with the universe and I think I’ve been getting the sore end of the deal lately and this time, well this time we aren;t going to play around. No siree this time, it’s gonna be all business because.
Well, groundhog day, remember?"
Suddenly and without any prior warning, she just flips the floating lilo thing and plunges herself under the water. As soon as her body breaks the surface the waves careen out towards the tile, everything is choppy and wild and disturbed. The water itself makes splashing wet sounds against other parts of the water and even against the walls of the pool.
And just like she said, under the surface it all looks a little different. The sunnies glide away on a wave and for a passing second you might even swear those baby blue eyes were black. Blonde strands turning almost red with the hue of the sun, like blood creeping from her scalp to the tips. But it all just lasts mere seconds before is back up, breaking the surface like a mermaid…
Or something less majestic, since no one ever looks like they do in the movies when coming up for air.
"Perception is everything sometimes; We all waste our time worrying about what other people will think or say, trying to get out ahead and be the first with the quick come back or the zippy one liner but really, what does it all do? It all does nothing. You know?
What works, what doesn’t. Changes with each passing second because people are almost as fickle as the universe herself. So you have to make a choice, most people choose to follow people and that works for a little while, at least. But I chose to follow the universe and that requires Faith.
It stopped mattering which way I look at things, I just have to know. I have to believe in myself and in my ability and training. I have to stop caring what they think, or what you think, James. Because does it matter? Really why should it? If you think i’m the biggest challenge you ever faced three different ways or if you think i’m the punk kid, it doesn’t mean anything. None of these words MEAN anything, the part that means something is still yet to come and I just.
WHY?! Why like this, why waste our time. What does it matter if I say I can beat you if I don’t. I have all to lose and all to gain, or nothing to lose at all really. All I have done is lose so why then, why does it matter if I lose again. Perhaps I should cite a cornered animal but would that tired wording not be true for you too? Too true, two losers bonded in our losses.
I don't wanna belong to you, or this or any of it. THAT’s what I have to lose you know? Myself, my faith. How many times can I close my eyes and let the universe take me before she drives me to ruin, so do I risk it… Will this be the loss that takes me faith?
I don’t want to find out.
I can’t.
This has to be the restoration, not the dillsoution.
And if the universe will not guide us, then we will find another, in her place."
Moon Log 001
The moon doesn’t really smell like cheese, HH and I thought maybe we weren’t on the moon at all and part of me thinks maybe he’s right even now. But everyone told is the moon is where we were going and things definitely feel a bit different here.
I don’t have much control over my body and by not much I mean none at all. I stopped even being able to feel it and if I really, really think about it? I guess I feel a bit like a floating head. Like here I am, just floating about and buds it feels weird.
I guess my body got lost on the way or maybe you don’t need a body on the moon. She said I had to come here though, lately the universe has been getting kinds mad with me about things, she says I’ve been acting ungrateful for all she’s done for me and going on a bit about how I was letting her down.
I don’t know if you guys ever let you mom or dad down, but letting the universe down feels a lot worse than that and even that feels pretty bad. So when she said I had to come to the moon, I figured I should do what she asked. I am a bit worried I may miss my match but --
Well, maybe that’s why my body stayed behind. I’m not too worried, she knows what to do and anyway. The one who sleeps behind my eyes has been grumbling and hunger-ing (I think maybe that’s a word I just invented) lately, so this might just be the best thing all around.
Also, I hope you can see this buds! I’m not really sure how it works to blog from the moon. But all the same I hope it comes through. Gotta go now, me and HH are gonna go see if it tastes like cheese, even though it doesn’t smell like it.
TTYL! Xoxo
Indi Rhyder.