Post by Deleted on May 8, 2017 18:56:03 GMT -5
Yesterday
“Oh shit…” the other side of the wall had a drop a bit further then I anticipated and I landed hard. Luckily my muscle memory kicked in and I rolled into the fall and just laid there as the laughter began. It started as a giggle then grew from there. I couldn't stop laughing at myself. Oh sure here I was lying on gravel lucky to not have broken anything. A dull ache was settling through my leg from where I landed hard but I couldn't stop laughing.
It was then that I looked up and saw my friends Steve and Jeff’s head appear looking down at me. Stupid ass grins on both of them. “Did you have a nice trip?” Steve blurts out. It was the dumbest joke but I couldn't stop laughing. Rolling over I groaned as I slowly start to stand. The laughing above me continued as I shook my head.
“That was God awful Steve. You are never allowed to speak again.” I say still laughing at the whole thing. “I guess I miss timed that landing huh?” They both jumped down and walked over. The grins spread wide on both of my friends faces as they came to a stop near where I landed.
“Yea you did a little.” Jeff said sarcastically. “You ok?” he added in a bit friendlier tone
“Nothing my ego can't handle. Unlike Mr. Stand up over here I can handle falling flat.” I say eyeing Steve “Anyways I think I'm going to call it a run I need to hit the gym and prepare for my match this week.”
“That's right you're going to be one of those professional wrestlers. You'll be fine it's all fake anyways.” Steve finishes. I begin laughing before twisting around I grab Steve's arm and as he finishes he is dumped from a basic hip toss onto his face. With a groan “Fine not fake, not fake.”
“Good, right answer. “ I said releasing the hold and Steve. Jeff breaks out into gales of laughter seeing Steve now on the ground.
"I know you got signed by Union Battleground. Have you had your first Match?” Jeff asked
"No not yet. I am facing Kimitsu Zombie at the next show.” My jaw line tightens saying her name out loud. Its not fear that passes on my face as an expression but one of knowing and expectations.
"No shit, dude she is crazy. You're going to get your ass beaten." Jeff says starting to chuckle.
"Yea most people think that I don’t have a chance. But thanks for the that Jeff I really appreciate the fan support.” I say dead pan as I roll my eyes. “Anyways I'm going to head back home and hit the gym and prepare for an apparent ass beating by Ms. Zombie.” I take off back climbing the wall with ease as I hear the trailing laughter of my two friends behind me. Left alone with my thoughts I begin to wonder how will I survive.
Off-Camera
Dream Journal entry 1
I awoke with a shudder. It was the same dream again, the one I've had for 4 straight days. I kept falling, falling deeper into the blackness. At the same time I knew that there was a light ahead. If I just allow the blackness to envelop me; that it would be okay and that the light would shine piercing my soul. I wanted to scream just then, yet I couldn't. I wouldn't.
You know how you get that feeling that somebody's watching you. You know that moment? When the hairs stand up on the back of your head and you realize that you're not alone. That's how I feel, but not in a creeped out way in the finally Im not alone way. It's like all those times you've sat alone, worrying that there's nobody there for you. That feeling is gone. The, like the day is warm, this is crazy talk, type of feelings.
I know I didn't know what to think. I still don't. There I was waking up in the morning after talking to her. I just spent the last 4 days with her. I know this is where it all stems from, I just, I don't know how to move forward. I know my feelings run deep I know that they're true, but I also know that she doesn't know what she wants. I can tell her feelings for me are real and I know that she wants to move forward. That we take the right steps but I also know that she has another. Someone she won't confess to cant confess her feelings for and until she does I don't know if we ever will really be together.
What I do know is that it doesn't matter. I said earlier I want to shout, I want to shout these feelings from the mountain top. I don't for the same reason I want to shout. The same reason I keep them to myself. I want to her to be happy. I want her to be who she is. I want her to step into the spotlight so that all may see how I see her. That all may know how she makes not only me feel but the countless fans who support her already know.
I wait, I wait for the next text, I wait for the next message because then I am connecting with her in a way that is meaningful. I have now become truly alive for the first time in years.
End journal entry.
I close the computer and go back to thinking about my day I've got my upcoming match against Kimitsu zombie She is a formidable opponent and I have to bring everything that I have and that may not be enough. Even though my life is starting to come together I know it can end in an instant with such an opponent.
On Camera
Camera pans over to see Jonathan walking along a hallway. "Oh hey" he says as he takes a step back seeing the camera for the first time. He is dressed in shorts and a light Tee Shirt. "You must be the guys from Union battleground."
There is a soft "Yes" come from off screen followed by "Tell us your thoughts on your first match in Union Battlegrounds."
"My thoughts, sure.” I pause a moment letting the image of what could happen cross my mind. “ I am going to get beat to hell. That’s my first thoughts. This is a proverbial thrown to the wolves type of situation as it’s been told to me. Here I am new to the fed and having to take up Kimitsu Zombie open challenge to the fed.
You know what, I asked for this fight. I asked for this the moment when I signed the line with Union Battleground. I knew that if I wanted to make a go at this wrestling, I would have to face the best and guess what, Night One I get down to business.
Am I scared? No, because I know what is coming. I’m going to get beat to hell and then some. I've seen what she is capable off so I know what to expect. I know that hell and all that the name Zombie brings to mind is coming for me mind body and soul.
It’s the unknown that frightens me, but the only good thing about Kimitsu Zombie I know what’s coming. What’s coming for me is hellacious and frightening in its own way. I know that going in so I am not afraid of what’s coming. The question is does She know what’s coming to Lights Out? Oh I’m sure she has made up her mind about the little rookie. I’m sure she has made up her mind on me. I hope she thinks Ill be one that rolls over and dies. I hope that because the look on her face when I survive the match will be priceless.
Do I think I can win? Guys to face one of the Zombie clan survivals is your goal. Will I win I don’t know. Will I survive that is a question I answer with a resounding, Yes."