Post by Deleted on May 23, 2017 18:38:18 GMT -5
Oh and two... how could this possibly happen? That thought's been rattling around in my brain ever since my second Union Battleground loss. Ever since Damon Xalvador pinned my shoulders to the mat: one, two, three.
Another sleepless night, I thought; sighing aloud as I rolled over to look at the alarm clock on my night stand
"Figures," I muttered, rolling over and then rolling back again restlessly. Even my own alarm clock is determined to remind me of my record. Dirty traitor.
Still, this has become my routine. Every night, I lay awake, tossing and turning. Worrying about my career. I mean, I've been told that I have so much potential to make it big. I'm the youngest judoka to reach 6th dan. I'm a second generation wrestler. The daughter of a bonafide legend of the sport. Throughout my career, I've faced and overcome great adversity, but never like this.
Never going winless for months at a time. Yes, months! Before Union Battleground, there was Neon Generation Independent Wrestling, and Kira even cost me a World Title shot there!
And now... now I don't know if I'll ever even get a title shot again, much less beat Ashley Williams.
Oh yes, there's that keeping me up at night as well. Match number three in Union Battleground. Ashley Williams. Six months ago, if you asked me whether I could defeat Mandi Morrison and Damon Xalvador, I would've nodded with a smile and said "Yes I can!" Deep down inside, I would've known it wouldn't be easy, but I was confident that I could beat anybody. Six months ago, if you asked me if I could beat Ashley Williams, you'd probably get the same answer.
Now, though? I just don't know.
This whole darkness thing with Kira, it's... I just don't know. Don't get me wrong, I've faced people like him before. Some had similar claims. All of them battered and bloodied me from pillar to post. But none... NONE have had this kind of effect on me.
So can I beat Ashley Williams? Good question. Right now, I just want to get some sleep, and hope I don't roll over and see a three on the alarm clock where the two was a bit ago.
Another sleepless night, I thought; sighing aloud as I rolled over to look at the alarm clock on my night stand
00:02
"Figures," I muttered, rolling over and then rolling back again restlessly. Even my own alarm clock is determined to remind me of my record. Dirty traitor.
Still, this has become my routine. Every night, I lay awake, tossing and turning. Worrying about my career. I mean, I've been told that I have so much potential to make it big. I'm the youngest judoka to reach 6th dan. I'm a second generation wrestler. The daughter of a bonafide legend of the sport. Throughout my career, I've faced and overcome great adversity, but never like this.
Never going winless for months at a time. Yes, months! Before Union Battleground, there was Neon Generation Independent Wrestling, and Kira even cost me a World Title shot there!
And now... now I don't know if I'll ever even get a title shot again, much less beat Ashley Williams.
Oh yes, there's that keeping me up at night as well. Match number three in Union Battleground. Ashley Williams. Six months ago, if you asked me whether I could defeat Mandi Morrison and Damon Xalvador, I would've nodded with a smile and said "Yes I can!" Deep down inside, I would've known it wouldn't be easy, but I was confident that I could beat anybody. Six months ago, if you asked me if I could beat Ashley Williams, you'd probably get the same answer.
Now, though? I just don't know.
This whole darkness thing with Kira, it's... I just don't know. Don't get me wrong, I've faced people like him before. Some had similar claims. All of them battered and bloodied me from pillar to post. But none... NONE have had this kind of effect on me.
So can I beat Ashley Williams? Good question. Right now, I just want to get some sleep, and hope I don't roll over and see a three on the alarm clock where the two was a bit ago.